Look At Me - Blog Entry #15 -
My Worst Dream and Best Dream Ever Today
I just had the worst dream and best dream ever. The weird thing is the best dream was the first one that came to me and then I fell asleep for 4 hours and had the worst dream ever.
The best dream ever: I was a secret agent in the movie, xXx (Triple X), with Xander Cage and he was talking on the phone to someone in his car. I think I heard something about going to a club together and then, I woke up.
The worst dream ever: I was at an unidentified friend's house with a few dogs, then I hear that my gramma Beverly passed away. The dream gets sped forward to her funeral and I was carrying her casket and I watched her cremation. The dream gets sped forward again and now,we're in a church and right when everyone was lining to say a few words on her behalf, I realized I was sitting next to my own gramma. It was the funeral of someone else's gramma.
3 words: OH...MY...GOD!!!
I WAS CRYING WHEN I WOKE UP!!!
SO I LOOKED IN MY DREAM DICTIONARY AND HERE'S WHAT I FOUND:
SPY - REVEALS A LACK OF TRUST AND LOVE TOWARD SOMEONE OR SOMETHING.
CAR - THE DESIRED IMAGE YOU WISH TO PROJECT TO EVERYONE.
PHONE - LACK OF COMMUNICATION WITH SOMEONE.
DANCING (CLUB) - EXTREME HAPPINESS.
FUNERAL - YOUR UNCONSCIOUSNESS MAY BE SUGGESTING THE POSSIBILITY OF HUGE CHANGE IN YOUR WAKING LIFE.
CORPSE - DEAD PERSON = SOME ASPECT OF YOUR LIFE THAT HAS DIED.
PETS - DOGS = BASIC/NATURAL FEELINGS.
CHURCH - FEELINGS OF RELIGION.
GRANDPARENTS - STRONG FEELINGS FOR THEM.
I have explanations for almost all of these symbols.
Sometimes I feel like my mom and her boyfriend hate me.
I want to be skinny so my nearest and dearest will pay more attention to me.
I only talk to my gramma every once in a while.
I lost 11 pounds so far!!!
I barely talk to my friend and crush, Bryan, and my stepcousin, Jared, who thinks I am beautiful.
Sometimes I feel like God is ignoring me on purpose.
I loved my gramma so much that I thought my bad dream was real and I cried when I woke because I thought she was dead.
SOMETIMES, I wonder if my mind has thoughts that I can't hear or perceive or sense.
I'm going to call mt gramma to make sure I'm still awake, just to be sure.
Talk to 'ya guys later!!!